Today is day 8 on Dr. Fuhrmans lose 10 lbs in 20 days detox.
How and I doing?
I WANT CHOCOLATE!
I want chocolate so bad I can literally taste it.
The temptation is high because I have 22 lbs of rich, dark chocolate in my pantry.
Both dairy free, low sugar, and extremely flavorful.
I wish I was kidding.
Check it out.
Some months back I took a Professional Chocolatier Certification course online. We had to buy bulk chocolate, and as I am the worst estimator ever, so I ended up with more than I needed.
Chocolate comforts me, it brings joy, and fond memories, so in this “recreating me” season of my life, I decided to take a chocolatier course, a vegan baking course, and a Forks over Knives Plant-based cooking course.
I had big dreams of teaching plant-based cooking classes, opening a chocolate confections business, and making people happy.
Then those dreams fizzled, like most of my “dreams,” or impulsive ideas often have.
People have described me in many ways; Naive, a bit Pollyanna-ish, Flighty, flakey, quitter, impulsive, and God knows what else.
But I like to think I am resourceful, resilient, creative, inventive, strong, compassionate, and maybe a bit too sensitive hearted.
I’ve had a lot of jobs in my lifetime. I’ve started careers, and finished them. I have certifications from many online schools, I earned my Public Speaking Competent Communication award in Toastmasters, I have gone to clown college, taught clown school, started a clown ministry, got certified as a hospital clown, visited people in hospitals as a clown, and those experiences will stay with me forever.
I’ve also had 36 surgeries, eating disorders, breast cancer, menopause at 27, 3 life threatening pregnancies, where I lost a child. I’m a survivor of domestic violence, and rape, I live with awful chronic daily pain, PTSD, Chronic fatigue, and the ramifications of Breast cancer left me a bit limited, so I need a little help now and again.
I’m not a flake, I’m living life!
I’m trying new things, getting out there, and not giving up, which would be so easy to do.
Imagine holding a basket, and standing in front of a field of flowers. With each life experience, you add a flower to the basket. For experiences that make you happy, the flower stays. If something isn’t a good fit, you remove it from the basket.
At the end of our lives, if we have fully lived, our baskets will be filled with amazing memories, some crazy stories, a few embarrassing moments, a handful of heroic tales, and the most beautiful flower garden ever created.
I don’t measure success by how long I’ve done something, I measure it by “IF” I’ve done something.
This blog is my life long dream.
I am a writer.
I am a Public Speaker.
I love making people feel something and bringing a little light in their darkness.
I’ve taken a lot of things out of my basket, while searching for the right things to put in and life has been quite an experience.
But I am home now, this is where I am meant to hang my hat.
Today is day 8 of this amazing detox / challenge and I am growing in ways I never thought possible. It seems silly to write about the food I ate today so I won’t.
I will leave you with this…
How full is your basket?
Have you taken a leap of faith, then fallen on your face?
Have you experienced life with all its ups and downs?
Have you loved and lost?
Do you have any regrets?
If you’re reading this, it’s not too late to add things to your basket.